Hello loves, today is a bit of a TMI and perhaps for some an unpleasant read but it is something we need to discuss nevertheless. Today, I want to briefly raise awareness (and in all honesty vent) about how much it can suck to deal with your menstruation. Are you ready for this? Grab some chocolate, a blanket and lets do this!
From the age of twelve I have been dealing with a very irregular, and often unbearably painful menstruation. As a matter of fact, as I am typing this now I am cramping up wishing for this agony to come to an end. To my own surprise, as it literally took me years to ‘grow out’ of the pain. But unfortunately it seems the time has come again… But let’s not get ahead of ourselves shall we.
Passing out, throwing up, crying and basically sticking to ‘bed rest’ for at least two-three days every month were all side-effects of my cycle. I have been told countless times that “there is nothing we can do” or “why don’t you take the pill” when seeing a doctor about my agonising cramps and often extreme irregularity. It came to a point where my, at the time, male GP told me “I am so glad I am not a woman”… Very helpful indeed. You understand that my next GP had to be a woman without a doubt.
Luckily, the pill does help lots of girls and women. However, the only thing it seemed to be doing for me was creating a regular cycle. So after two years, I decided to quit taking the medicine and to my own surprise my period stayed away for nearly six months. After this hormonal imbalance, which by the time I was about 19, my cycle came back and was more regular than ever. Gradually the pain faded away as well, and there were even days that I was able to survive without having to take a single painkiller.
Being able to just live my life without having to plan everything around my period felt like a whole new world opened up to me. Literally the only thing bothering me would be the occasional spots and annoying bloating the week before. All very bearable of course. Until this month, when all of a sudden my irregularity seemed to have reappeared and I walked around extra bloated, extra spotty, fearing the worst would come… And indeed. The day my period arrived, I had the agonising pain I dealt with in the past. I hope it’s just a one-time hormone thing, because in all honesty I have been pretty stressed out and exhausted lately. So hopefully after taking better care of myself I can leave this in the past once and for all…
Photography by Anuschka Giersthove
So to all my readers, those without cycles and those with very bearable cycles, the worst thing someone dealing with similar cycle-related issues can experience is people that do not show any understanding. Yes, periods occur (normally) every month, but that does not mean that they are always something to just brush off. Some people, including myself, really struggle to continue their daily lives. Not because we are being annoying brats, but because we are dealing with problems. And if you are someone that is dealing with period-related problems, just know that you are not alone. Don’t be scared to talk about how you feel. There are always people out there that will understand you and help you get through it. And if you are really worried about your situation, go see a doctor and don’t take no for an answer. If you are worried about anything at all you should have it checked not matter what.
Lots of Love,